September 10, 2013

How is it possible to be this old and still have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing with my life?
People ask me all the time "So what are you going to do with that degree?"  I look at them like I'm waiting for them to tell me.  I'm actually waiting for someone to tell me.  I would have never imagined that I would go to school for this long come to the point of doing my dissertation and still not know exactly what I'm supposed to be doing.  And really I don't think you're supposed to tell people you don't know what you're going to do, like they might revoke you doctorate or something.  And did you know that there are assholes everywhere?  I spent most of my adult life believing that people with education were all nice.  Yes, I led a very sheltered life growing up.  Children were not part of adult conversations, girls did not speak at the table (I was raised by my grandparents, lol, I'm not that old) and my grandfolks slept in separate beds across the room from each other.  When I first got married I was asked if I had consummated my marriage.  I had no idea what she meant by that, quite possibly a food we ate or something?  I really didn't know. 

Needless to say I learned as I got older and became more educated that there are assholes everywhere in every walk of life.  I just didn't think they would confer them with degrees but I guess so. 

So lacking direction in my life I decided to take some serious advice and start reading a chapter in Proverbs a day, take notes and glean the principles of wisdom.  I just began the journey and I must say that I really like it. There are two principles that we are supposed to seek, wisdom and peace.  I have to say that I'm very excited to seek out the wisdom of proverbs, and strangely in doing this I feel an amazing presence of peace.  Solomon wrote Proverbs, he was the wisest and the richest man on earth.  God had created Solomon with these attributes, he referred to Solomon as a man of peace and he said that he loved Solomon.  Solomon was the son of King David from his adulterous affair with Bathsheba.  Their first son died as punishment for King David murdering Bathsheba's husband.  However, God is a God of restoration and multiplicity, so when he restored the son that David lost he made him seven times better than the one that was lost.  Remember that when you have lost something.

This is where my journey begins and I believe it's an excellent place to begin.  Of course I'm filling out applications and working on my dissertation while I work and referee my children but I'm really excited about having a starting point. 

From here on out I'll be including the revelations as my path unfolds before me.  God is so cool. Seriously.