September 25, 2013

I have committed to reading Proverbs every day, now I'm trying to type exactly why I'm doing this and I have typed and deleted and typed again so I'm apparently unsure as to why I'm really doing this.  Although I will say it is harder than I thought and there is a lot more in there than I realized.  I read the words but sometimes I really don't completely understand what it's trying to tell me.  I'm praying that it will impart the wisdom I'm looking for and I will say this it is definitely imparting peace and there are some changes taking place within me that are creating resolves that I know are not fully realized but they are forming. 

The Word is alive and sharper than a two edged sword.  Now I know this.  I know its scriptural and that I have read this in the new testament.  No, I don't remember where and this is a bad habit of mine.  I remember tons of scripture, just don't ask me exactly where its at.  I do know that as the Word is imparted within me that I have become calmer, more resolved and I know in my spirit that I don't have to have all the answers.  Now this is a far cry from when I began this journey and I've only read through Genesis and the first 6 chapters of Proverbs.  Proverbs talks about the person, although it says the woman, I believe in my case a woman would not be my problem but a man of this type would, that flatters with words to get you to do something they want.  They'll tell you anything you want to hear as long as you will do what they want.  Honestly, for me that sounds like most men I know.  It also speaks about how wisdom brings pleasantness and peace into our lives and safety as well.  Our feet will not stumble we will have sweet sleep when we give our attention to wisdom.  Now really, how many people can't sleep at night because they are worried to death about everything.  And who in their right mind doesn't want a little peace in their lives.  We all do.  I can tell you that as I have begun to read daily, there has been a gradual increase of peace within my home and my head. 

Did you know that in Proverbs 6 he uses perverse mouth and flattery within the same context, the same verse.  Then it goes on to say that this person with the perverse mouth who uses flattery has a perverse heart as well. And I find it interesting that flattery is in a negative context the perverse person uses flattery, therefore flattery is a type of perverse communication, why?  Maybe because the person's motive for using it is manipulation? Hmm. I have known quite a few people like this and I have to say they have not ended up well. Their end is usually very self destructive and lonely. 

Now I won't tell you that everything in my life is perfect.  My oldest is going in for more surgery, my middle daughter is still schizophrenic but I have to give her mad props she is functioning like someone who does not have the disorder.  My youngest still has many things to figure out but I will continue to bring her before the Lord there are many scriptures on the seed of the righteous and God's covering over them.  Well, she's my seed and I'm the righteous and He's my God. 

Every mother has to take a stand for her family before the throne of Grace and realize that He's got this, He's got me and He's got them too.  Amidst  this my poor boss is having major health issues so I just keep praying for her.

All the while you may be wondering why I never mention any interest in men.  Any relationship issues with the opposite sex.  I had them.  Had.  I don't.  The end.  Don't get me wrong I love men.  I love romance, I love sex and marriage I love it all.  I appear to not have any time for it at the moment.  And there isn't anyone that I would change my schedule for to spend time with who is currently attempting to be in my life.  When he shows up I'll know and I guarantee there will be all kinds of time for him.  Until then I'm busy.