July 2, 2015

Today is a great day I feel like things are beginning to change for me.  After a year of revisions on my dissertation proposal I will be uploading for the institutional review board to approve.  They may shred it and send it back but I'm so grateful to be done with revisions.  I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's been a very long tunnel.  When the school told me it all looked really good I didn't quite know how to feel about it I've been doing revisions for so long it was starting to be a way of life.  Now I have to figure out how to use survey monkey and how to get it uploaded to facebook so that hopefully people will agree and take my survey.  Crazy stuff for me, probably not to some, but for me its just so different.

Then after years of roadblocks and being ignored it looks like doors are opening, God is good!  I'm actually  beginning to believe that I just may not be as stupid as I thought and maybe God is really opening some doors.  Truth is my current job has been such a blessing to me, the people have been so good to me over the years it would be so difficult to leave them. Both of my bosses are so good to me in every way...maaan.  Even when change is good and dreams begin to come true its still hard.  I guess any change is hard, we get used to our messes, our struggles and uphill climbs, when we finally don't have to do it anymore we don't know what to do.  I'm not actually there yet but it's starting to feel like things will begin to become much easier.  My Pastor's wife actually prophesied that over me the other night.  Wow....

We had out group tonight and all I can really say is that I just love them!!!! And it's so cool to be able to share with them that God can really take away loneliness and fill the void in our lives.  Yes, we can have peace with or without a man, in or out of turmoil it really does exist and we can really have it.