July 25, 2015

Within two weeks time I have discussed jobs with two different entities.  I had a friend tell me one time to look for jobs in unlikely places.  She said to apply all over, so I did.  Its a different world now, I'm negotiating salaries and that's just a little weird to me but, it's all good.  My dissertation continues on, I've sent back the revisions from the committee member to my chair, if anything should change it'll be minor.  Meanwhile I'm putting together my checklist and waiting.

Group meetings are going well I just love all of them but I have a vision for bigger meetings and expanded group activities etc.  If it's one thing I want the women to learn is the joy of the Lord and his desire to be involved in their lives.

The funniest thing happened to me, I was watching TBN and everyday at 11:30 this guy (preacher) came on and I've never paid attention to this guy he's a tall gentleman, medium build, blond and fair features, all the things I'm not particularly interested in paying attention to. But there was nothing left to listen to and I was waiting to leave so I just listened.  I expected him to go blah blah blah I'm a boring preacher I ramble on .....................  But then he said something, he asked if we wanted to when God would tell us our destiny, he said I bet you wish He would just tell you so you could just go in that direction.  And then finally, I can tell you when He will tell you what your destiny is....  Then there was a pause.  He said it'll be when you are in the middle of it and He'll confirm it for you.  But you'll already be there, doing it, living it and then yes this is your destiny.  Here I was waiting for the moment when someone was going to tell me when God would let me know what my destiny was and plop!!  Finally the best advice I've ever heard, He said be faithful in the gifting that God has given you no matter how small it is.  Just keep being faithful and use your gift even when your tired of it and don't see a light at the end.  Joseph in the Bible never really knew how he would get to where he was going.  He had a vision of his brothers bowing down but that's all he had.  He had no idea that any of the future events were all part of the step by step process God was leading him through to get to the Pharaoh and be his right hand man in charge of everything.  But when you're thrown into a pit to die, accused of rape and thrown in prison and forgotten I think it would be very easy to become bitter and begin to think that he would just die there.  And really, we don't know if he didn't have moments of depression and hopelessness.  But when the Baker and the Taster asked Joseph to interpret their dreams he did it.  He used his gifts, for a moment he didn't allow his pain to shut him down and become bitter.  Instead, he gave them their interpretations.  That moment was his defining moment.  In that moment he made a decision to just use his gift and meet another person's need.  Most people think the defining moment for Joseph was when he interpreted Pharoah's dreams but it wasn't.  He had to be faithful in that small defining moment in prison before he was allowed to go before the Pharoah.  Actually that small defining moment was what brought him before Pharoah.  That's important and actually that is key.  You really don't know which small moment in your time will be the defining moment that unlocks the door to your destiny.  But it will be small and it will require you looking beyond yourself and being obedient to God's leading.

When the light bulb came on I finally realized that it didn't matter how small or large the group was I needed to be faithful in what God has called me to do no matter what and no matter how small.  The Word says to not despise small beginnings........now I really understand why.  I don't know which small moment of obedience will be my defining moment but I do know it will be within my faithfulness using the gifts he's given me in a small and seemingly unimportant way.  That one small moment will be the key that will unlock the door to the next level of God's destiny and that is very exciting to me!