June 29th 2015

I don't think I've ever worked this hard I'm grateful the day is over.  I've been told by my advisor to have a conversation with my program director since my chair, the teacher responsible for working with me on my dissertation, is not responding to me the way she should.  She waits three to four weeks before she responds and then it's a little strange.  I don't like to start problems but my advisor explained that she's responsible for doing her job in a timely manner and she's not and its costing me.  I  hate confrontation especially with my chair but oh well you got to do what you got to do I guess.

I was told that I'm fulfilling my calling.... Interesting I've been praying a lot about my calling.  I decided that I would get my doctorate and bake cupcakes and make fairy gardens lol.  Sounds a little like I'm losing my wicket lol or just running I don't know.

You know it's hard to continually write revisions you start to think that you have no brains at all like your not smart enough to complete a sentence.  And sometimes I think that's correct I don't really think I'm an expert in my field of expertise according to my dissertation I feel like I should be making clown balloons but they'd break.

Well on to my email to my program director after she reads my proposal she may throw me out of the program altogether.  She may tell me that my chair should have dumped me a long time ago.  Oh well I'll definitely find out!