December 19, 2012,

I forgot to post yesterday, my daughter finally quit crying for over her husband, my other one chooses to sleep in her apartment without lights until tomorrow, mind you its been below 60 degrees at night.  I'm not quite sure why, but she apparently cherishes her freedom.  My youngest has made the decision that I want nothing to do with her although I'm not quite clear on that one. 

It is interesting as I journal my life.  See I am a single woman and although I am a grandmother, I have a life of my own.  I am currently in the second year of my doctorate in forensic psychology, its actually my escape from my world.  I actually have personal friendships of which I do not discuss, only because I am viewed as nama and they are not love interests they are releases from a life that would otherwise be either amazingly overwhelming, or incredibly boring, take your pick. 

Today is quiet, no drama, no rides to the mental health hospital, no daughters running in my house crying over a break up, just peace.  I should actually sit here for a moment and really take it in because its an unusual experience in my life.  It only lasts for about an hour, unless of course I change my number and move to Ireland. 

The news has been talking about Newton Connecticutt this week.  I have paid close attention, at first they said the only problem the son had was Asperbers.  I had to laugh, learning disabilities do not make people violent.  I knew before they uncovered more history and information on the man that he was mentally ill.  I have looked into my daughter's eyes when she has been in a manic state, I know whats possible.  The last time was one day before she got in to see the psychiatrist.  Thank God it was a new one that had brains.  I knew they weren't telling her the right information, I knew they were wrong, but she's over eighteen and somehow even though I have the education and obviously experience in the area, they enjoy looking at the mother like she's stupid.  Sadly, because of this situation I'm sure, they will begin to listen more I hope.  There are many family members who scream at mental health professionals trying to tell them something is seriously wrong and so many times they do not listen.  Why those beautiful children and dedicated adults had to pay for people to begin to wake up is beyond anything sane I have ever experienced.