December 22, 2012

Journaling again.  I just found out my daughter who has the schizophrenia disorder forgot to get her pills again, for probably what I would like to term the millionth time.  That's not actually the case but it definitely feels like it.  No worries, that's probably the reason she's smoking so much weed.  This is not uncommon with individuals who suffer from various disorders.  They will usually self medicate, they seem to think its easier and I'm really not seeing it since you have to contact your dealer and see if and I mean if he has any weed then you have to go get it at his convenience, when you can just call the phamacy (which by the way is a drive thru) get your refills and get ur presciptions.  I guess that's just too easy, what was I thinking.  It is afterall called schizophrenia I suppose. And no I don't let her go without her meds I always make sure she gets them even if its a few days out.  There's always a window of time where they start regress and things begin to fall apart.  You can tell within a week when things are slipping you just have to pay close attention all the time. 

My oldest has moved in, luckily for me I got to help her move out of her house and low and behold in all the drama that was her life, she's officially a hoarder, or maybe just a slob I'm not sure which but I know one thing, I did not have fun cleaning her house all day and moving furniture.  So what does she do?  She puts pictures of her husband (whose in jail) on her dresser.  Really?  Maybe she's gonna throw darts at them but I really don't think so.  She is the textbook definitation of co-dependent.  Then she had to make sure she put money on a card so he could call his son on his birthday today?  I'm not quite sure what chapter in my psyc books this falls under.  I could rattle on about low self esteem, dependency issues, fear of being alone issues, but I'm tired I think she's just lost her mind. 

Well, lucky for me I have homework, where I write about disorders and how to correctly deal with them.  No where in those books does it say to pray, but honestly that's what I do pray...alot.....everyday.