May, 17, 2013;

Well today I saw human nature at it's lowest.  Court is an interesting phenomenon, although anything that involves human behavior (which is about everything) is an interesting phenomenon.  Hate is a powerful motivator for behavior, even behavior at the expense of other people's well being.  Did you know that even though you conduct yourself in a particular manner, you may pretend to be nice, you may pretend to be mean, you may pretend to be a number of things, the real you always comes through. 

To prove this point I would conduct my own experiments on human behavior and being able to hide the real you on the inside.  I owned a child development center and I was always busy doing things, it could be anything from paperwork, teaching, cleaning, cooking or preparing activities, it really didn't matter I was always busy.  I never tried to get close to a child, I never came up to them and made over them or tried to make them my friends.  I would always allow the child to feel his or her way around the new environment, explore it, look at everything, say hi to the kids and just get comfortable.  I would leave them alone, Iwould supervise them and make sure they were okay, but I would give them plenty of space.  Time would go on and always without fail, even though I was distant many times, they knew who to come to, who to cry to, who would protect them and who would love them, always.  They knew.  I would even experiment with being gruff and impersonal with them to see, and they would just smile at me and go play.  They knew my heart.  Now they say dogs are the same way, and I'm the same way with dogs and yet those beasts will come to me. 

Now, take that lesson and try to be nice, when really in your heart you are not.  In your heart, you're angry, you hate people or you're hurt and lash out, or you are just plain selfish and mean.  People know.  You aren't hiding anything, it comes from your being, it leaks out of your pores, people know. 

That brings me back to my original story I went to court and an individual was present, now I took a friend and I didn't say anything, because well, I'm always researching something.  When we left, she said that one guy (and she gave a description) he's a jerk.  He wants control of her.  Yes he's always been a jerk and he's always wanted control.  She said you could feel it.  She was right, you could.  And filled with hate, and told another person he didn't even want the child, he was doing it to get control for another person.  Isn't that interesting how the years don't help mature some people.  They just get meaner, more selfish and way more hateful.  And really the only thing that would make that person happy was if he could kill the woman, her death would satisfy him.  Now.......he'd never say that, whhhyyy of course not, but you can feel it, others can feel it.  He didn't hide it at all.

It's like demons nashing their teeth, and clawing at a person, they want the person dead.  They murmur, they glare, they roll their eyes and they grip the chairs.  But inside, their nashing their teeth, their clawing at her skin, they want her dead. 

The amazing part is the older they become, the more wicked and nasty their appear.  Dirty, dry wrinkled skin, wrinkled clothes and a slovenly appearance.  Did you ever watch the movie Death Becomes Her.  The two women are dead, they drink a syrum that keeps them looking fresh and young, but when the syrum is gone, they begin to appear dead.  Their skin begins to fall, their make-up looks horrible and their flesh begins to peel from their bodies.  They think noone knows, they think they're hiding all of the flaws and imperfections.  But they're not. 

The good news is God is in control and there are many promises in the Bible that cover the righteous and their seed.  I saw God move today and I saw wretched little dirty demons, but you know it's okay.  I have fought many battles in my life, people that wanted me dead and gone, it never happened, and I always prospered in the end and those that caused the trouble always ended up in bad places.  That's the heritage of the servants of the Lord and their children. 

Always stay in faith and always keep your hope in God, always.  Things don't always turn out in the beginning the way you want, they turn out waaayyy better.