May 27, 2013;

     Memorial Day and I'm going to work, my family is home, I'm getting ready to leave for a residency for a few days and can't wait to leave.  I finished my two classes and only have a few more to go then I begin my dissertation work.  I'm really not sure that I'm up to the challenge, but I'll never know unless I go for it. 

     Funny thing when you begin to peel off the layers and get rid of negative hurtful baggage in your life, you start to think clearly, strangely clear.  When you finally rid yourself of people around you that want to use you, those that hide behind the "I love yous" that aren't really love, they're just words used to manipulate you into doing whatever it is they want you to do or be for them at whatever moment they "need" you.  It's usually that they want some form of validation from you about who they need to hear they are or they just want something in particular from you. 

     Once those negative draining influences are gone from your life, things get quiet, it's like a clean slate.  That's when you find out how much time and energy they stole from you, energy that could have been used to your benefit but was stolen and wasted.  That's what the devil does you know, he steals from you, your heart (emotions), your mind (sanity and peace), your resources (energy, creativity, intelligence, etc.) and reduces you to a blithering puddle of tears and confusion.  What a way to render you powerless and ineffective, definitely not what God has intended for our lives. 

     After the dust has cleared and your mind begins to quiet down, clarity comes in, you can actually hear God speak to your mind and your heart.  That's when your focus kicks in again, your God given direction.  Now, let me tell you, those negative people who were whispering in your ear, "you need to do this..... well, you messed up here....... if you would have listened and done what I said you would be here....... let me tell you what's wrong with you.........you don't listen do you, you keep missing opportunities......".  And the best one of all "okay I gave you the "OllieOop" lol, whatever.  God is so much bigger.  He never talks down to you, he directs your paths and as long as your heart is willing he will lead you to your destiny, just look at Joseph.  I'm more than sure if he would have had his way he would have never chosen to go into that pit, or jail. 

     What's the lesson here, don't listen to people who tell you that you missed it.  God never misses it, you can trust him and believe me your so called "friends" miss it all the time.  Look hard at the lives of those telling you how wrong you are, usually people who talk that way have lives that are pathetic, they're just trying to hide from onlookers.  It's all fake, for popularity's sake, and seriously we got out of highschool a long time ago. 

     God has joy unspeakable for  you, for all of us.  We are supposed to be filled with joy and power, so take stock of those influences in your life that are pulling you down, if you are not married to it, get away, if you are, I'm sorry, the choice is definitely yours.