January 11, 2014


I miss my daughter.  Through the years I didn't have her the way I wanted her but now I miss her.  I always thought that the love between a man and woman outweighed the love for your child.  I don't really know why I thought that, maybe because a pastor once told me that your kids will grow up and leave the house, what will be left is you and your husband and therefore that relationship should be your number one focus.  Well, I have learned that he was wrong.  Maybe it would be true if you were married to the children's father and you were both focused on them as long as was needed.  But even he was not married to his children's mother so I'm not quite sure where he was going with that.  All I know is that I would rather have my daughter with me than any man anywhere. 


There is another side to this story and it's my granddaughter.  I meet with her every week during her lunch because her father has refused any visitation for her with her cousins or brother or sister.  I'm beginning to believe the time has come for more serious intervention.  She has become increasingly sad over time and wants to be with her family more often.  I held her for such a long time the other day and it became very clear that I would have to take additional steps on her behalf.  I would rather that God would miraculously intervene and make visitation possible but I'm not seeing that as the course right now so I'll pray and move very slowly and only as I believe that God wants.  He has to go before me otherwise it'll be a disaster.


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