December 3, 2013;

I'm exhausted, I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm so tired.  I found out this morning that the person who helped me my first day wasn't supposed to tell me the things she told me and the office manager was flipping out.  Of course the office manager was in meetings all day and gave no directions for my first day, but still that poor girl got it.  I felt so responsible for her dilemma but I didn't know either.  Then it was explained to me in the beginning that she would be training me and she text me early this morning to let me know she wasn't going in since she was on call.  So I told the office manager I wasn't coming in but I would work on the training modules at home.  Wrong.......and yet no one told me anything.  By the end of the conversation the office manager was apologizing for the disorganization and lack of communication and promised it really wasn't this way on a regular basis?????  Then to top it off I found out the clinic is in an old mortuary building, the kitchen was redone from a prep room.  Now you would think that would have bothered me but I've played piano all of my life and so there were funerals to play for and I would have to go set up while they were putting the makeup on the person and preparing them for the viewing......I never thought much of it, maybe I should have lol. 

I'm not really sure what to make of it all but I would like to give it my best shot and cooperate.  On the home front the psychiatrist increased my daughter's medication and it sent her blood pressure plummeting.....dizzy when she gets up, very tired, can barely move.  We took it and yup too much medication.  I told her to back off to the old dosage until her next meeting so I'm hoping tomorrow morning will show improvements, however, I won't be around to see it....alrighty then. 

My friend got into our dissertation program, she finally found a chair.  I'm so excited for her, I'm excited for me since she had become so depressed because she had written so many instructors and received nothing but refusals and she wasn't answering my texts, depressing.  So now she's back in the saddle and I'm excited!!!!!

My youngest whom I have been praying for is beginning to see signs of a miracle in her situation.  She was upset and began telling me, "but mom doesn't He know how much pain, heartache and suffering I have been going through this year?  It's not fair that after all of this it's just going to go away, I've been through hell!"  I told her yea but what would've happened without the prayer and Word going up.  How horrible could it have been without God intervening, better to be grateful than get mad because He didn't show up when you thought He should have.  Learn something!!!!! God shows up when He's supposed to not when we think he should.  Honestly I don't even know why I go through the things I go through but I always come out better than when I went in. 

I feel like my life has been so intense I would just like to go to a Beach Boys concert and party with friends.  I always think that falling in love would be awesome with the right person....then I think when would I find time??????  Go figure lol!