April 23, 2013;

Have you every had fear grip you.  In the pit of your stomach fear that made your head swim, your heart pound and take your breath away.  Sometimes there are obstacles within our paths that are so overwhelming, we just know it's going to swallow us alive and we're never going to be happy again.  Life will not return to the mundane and regular routine of mediocrity again.  Where we find ourselves in a situation in which we have not idea who our friends and enemies are, there's no where to turn, no one that you dare to listen to since they will all pretend to have the answers, be your friend, or just plain know more than you do and are more than willing to sit in front of you and just shake their heads.

My days have turned into a dust storm of this type of existence.  However, there are things I know, I know I serve a big God and I know I have his favor.  And although there are those who believe in being good and going to church and talking just right, oh and don't forget the show, good lord we can't live without the show.  The ones around you that pretend their lives are so much better, and oh yea, their your friend?  And they are on the side of right so if they say things about you behind your back or vindictively conspire with others against you, it's okay because your such an awful person that you deserve it.  BUT GOD.

I've heard things like, well you have to separate yourself from the situation and just let it be.  Maan, I sure wouldn't want them as a friend or parent for that matter, they're more than willing to step back and let you fall, no problem.  Or well, it serves you right that this happened, see I told you. 

But, you know God don't like ugly and through the years if you look close enough you'll see God's hand of protection and favor remove itself from you since you are more than willing to deliver what you would term justice, hatred, backing stabbing malicious behavior.  Look in the mirror, God don't like ugly.

Me?  I choose to step back from people like that if they're plotting against other people and gossiping I guarantee God will deal with them and I don't want any of the fall out on me. 

Even under the hardest times I choose to look for God's goodness, his favor and definitely his mercy.  I find promises of his deliverance everyday and I know he will always show himself strong on our behalf.  So while others shake their heads, I stand in faith.  Maybe they don't believe that God will have the last word but I believe he will.  Noone stood with Moses when he parted the sea, they thought he was crazy, noone believed David would kill Goliath, but he did.  As a matter of fact noone believed that marching around the walls of jericho would do anything but annoy the inhabitants, but the walls came down and the inhabitants were killed. 

The thing of it is, even if people could do everything and anything to you, it would never be enough because what they really want is your death.  They want to strip everything from you until your so lost, you die.  It isn't until then that they are happy.  Thats the real goal.

God says the wicked plot against the righteous, they nash their teeth they bend back their bow, but their bow is turned back into their own hearts and pierces it. 

All you have to do is stand back and see the salvation of the Lord.