January 17, 2013

Heavy into research and interviews, I love hearing what people have to say, what influences them, what motivates. 

My middle daughter experienced an intervention from her friend and was told he would not be helping with the xanex anymore.  Miraculously she became bright eyed and awake, still quite irritable and loves to blame me for everything, but  better.  An appointment was made for the therapist but somehow while I was at work she slipped through and didn't go.  There are support groups for schizophrenics where they desire more than anything to be treated like adults, families shouldn't interfere, they should be allowed to make their own mistakes and pay the prices for those mistakes.  I agree to a limit, but those mistakes are not ones that usually only effect the person with the disorder.  That mess spills out all over the family, coworkers, friends and miscellaneous others.  We have to put things back together after the schizophrenic goes manic.  I'm not blaming her I'm just trying to do damage control.  The less damage I have to control the more I can live my own life.  And let me tell you it ain't cheap cleaning up messes.  See, unless you want them to move in with you, theres the rent.  Because after all, it's hard to hold down jobs from a manic episode in the mental hospital.  If you are lucky to have a decent job, the job will wait, however, more than likely, since you have a disorder you have used all of your sick leave and vacation so the new visit is without pay.  Which still leaves the rent to be paid unless you want them to move home, No. 

Then there's the occasional I was gonna pay my electric bill but,....I didn't and.......the lights go off.  The last time I let her stay there in the dark, yes cacooie ville, the monstor's coming to get you land.  Oh well, pay the damn bill.  I'll take the baby you're staying put.  I still got tired.  Oh wait the refrigerator food is bad since of course the lights went out.  Mom can you bring me some food?  I'm so tired.

I've decided to get a studio apartment in a foreign country without a phone.  I'm thinking Tibet.