January 21, 2013


Today has been a day of revelation.  I learned that even though someone you love acts poorly sometimes (although I never do, you don't have it on video) if the way they have treated you stands the test of time hold on to them.  To be truthful I have acted poorly very poorly sometimes more like a girl than I want to admit, but thank God there are those who love me anyway.

Now for the real stuff, my daughter who suffers from schizophrenia is pulling the where can  I get pills game on everyone. This is the portion of  schizophrenia where they don't want to go see the psyc, they don't want to take the meds (for many reasons, weight gain, nausea since they haven't been taking them as they should so they're starting all over) things like that.  So the attempt at self medicating.  I cut off one supplier so she went to another, I've now cut that one off so we'll see what happens next.  It's a game we play, she doesn't know it or the rules only I do.  She thinks I don't know anything since she doesn't tell me anything like every mother's child but I do.  She's stressed out and struggling right now, she's trying to get over a hump so as long as she's surviving and hasn't cried uncle this is the game.  Hopefully, things will smooth out the easy way.

I'd rather do my blog on recipes or fun stuff I see so many cool sites I would love to spend time on.  I love to cook I actually take recipes off and experiment.  But that kind of blog is not who I am, I prefer looking into the Kraken (Pirates of the Carribean) when you deal with someone who suffers from schizophrenia, particularly  child that's where you go.